Do you know what hurts me most ?
Its when someone who used to be soo closed to me becomes more and more further away from me
we are not a stranger yet but why i feel soo awkward to be alone with you ?
when i talk with i feel like i'm talking with someone whom i don't even know
Is it me the one who has changed or is it you ?
I also don't know ..
Or maybe they were the one that changed you ?
and make our relationship turns this awkwardly
am i the only one who feels this ?
I don't know why i am stunned whenever you talk to me about them
I don't know what reaction should i gave to you
should i continuing the topic ?
or should i changed the topic ?
or just laughing awkwardly ?
Or maybe just stay silent for a while ?
The topic that we talked about doesn't seems like those topic that we used to talked about
it is completely different now .
This feeling is like i just meet my long lost old friend after 10 years of losing her.
it is not that i haven't see you for such a long time
we just haven't see each other for a couple few month ..
but why does it turns to be like this ?
No more fangirling over our favorite idols
no more screaming like a crazy bitch whenever we saw our bias on television
no more stupid jokes about our bias like saying that they look like a 'pondan' or 'your bias are not as handsome as my bias' etc etc ...
All that left now are just a serious conversation about what happening this lately
Your stories about how great your life now
about them , about how closed you were with them
the one that you used to hate
I'm not mad at how has changed
i'm just slightly sad and jealous over them ..
This is just my deep deep feeling that i keep inside my heart for quite a long time
something that you might not understand and might think that this is kinda annoying
I'm just hoping for the old you
the old you that used to be soo closed to me
the old you that i used to talk about all things
the old you that i used to laugh with ..
just the old you ...
I'm sorry if i am too timid in front of you
It is just too awkward for me
sorry ..
THANKS FOR VISITING, DO COME AGAIN SOON! :D
